The ego, Li Po, effortless disintegration, and being undead

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The Mother is the living nowness, without division, for the Mother is One.

As long as the ego remains, duality will exist. For the ego takes the One emanation and instantly divides it into two- right and wrong- and from that point onward there can be no peace.

"We sit together,

the mountain and I,

until only the mountain remains.”

            Li Po

What method is there to accomplish this effortless disintegration, I have no clue. Perhaps one must simply have finally had enough of the mayhem to just sit down like one who has completed their last marathon.

            It is as if one must pursue what cannot be pursued, and victory comes not in crossing the finish line- for there is no finish line- but in falling down exhausted and refusing to rise again for the race.

I was always undead, always apart, always me- that mis-shapen conduit of unearthly desires- and crazed through the pain of our thoughtless false confines.

No, none of it was me; there was only the great Spirit, the great Soul, and the unbridgeable gap in between.

And so I had to learn not to assist others to grow and you will do a greater disservice to them than if you had hurt, offended, or forsaken them. By all means offend them, I say. Let them writhe. Let their petty little egos crumble out beneath them. Let them fall down weeping and broken, or storm off in rage and indignation. Make a game of it if you must. Laugh yourself silly; better it is for them to have the lie ripped ruthlessly from their breast than to let it grow and devour them.

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These fragments and quotes are taken from the unpublished writings of Jack Haas, selected from the notebooks 1990-2005.