The ego, prayer, Galway Ireland, Lobsang Rampa, fairies, and zen isness

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The ego attaches itself to the manifest, which is the effect, from which all duality and contradiction arises; if there is conflict within us regarding what to ‘do’, it is because we are allowing the ego to direct us, rather than the Self, for in the Self there is no contradiction, there is only action, no reaction.

            Because I was not yet fully established in the Self, which would have allowed me to always choose the best expression for my manifestation, I often defaulted to the next best option- prayer. In prayer, or humble meditation, the ego is not allowed a voice, and therefore the Self wins the podium.

Within the spirit a certain physical law also applies, for it is easier to lift up your fellows by sinking below them, than to rise up above and try to haul them up with you.

I recognized the word ‘always’ in Galway, and then a couple of hours later a genius, outcast musician sang a song with that recognition in it.

Now I am alive and afloat in the magic again.

Could the multiple individuals containing a singular archetypical spirit which I see, be the manifold aspects of the singular overself proposed by Lobsang Rampa?

And then it came to me, as obvious as the most simple of facts- pavement is hate.

The coming into consciousness of the ‘indifferent’, ‘inviolable’, dark side. Night before I dreamt of the dark child.

Insects are fairies, in another dimension.

It is all necessary (to  be whole).

To see the bald, linear, unadorned actuality of zen isness.

Experience of the actual, absolute linear contextual aspect of zen ‘isness’.

Anything you desire gets in the way of grateful acceptance.

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These fragments and quotes are taken from the unpublished writings of Jack Haas, selected from the notebooks 1990-2005.