God, Christ, atonement, and William Burroughs

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In the midst of all the confusion, noise, haste, pain, and rapture, I realized everything is God, and only the rapture lasted on through, for I had come to respect the madness of the show.

People began to love and despise me for the very same reason- because I could see right through them. And when you can see right through someone, they have to die back to nobody. And for those who have love, it is a pleasant relief, and for those who hate, it is a scalding spotlight which exposes their lie.

It is one thing to disprove another's reality, it is another thing altogether to disprove another with their own reality. This is the descent into another's hell, the caustic redemption, the living atonement, and the re-ascent required of your selfless Christ self.

People say that I became old too soon, that I surrendered too early, but that is the view of a world in which men tear each other to pieces for scraps. I simply stopped caring. I stoically turned away. And I remained.

“Everyman's ME is the dullest part about him. Who wants to hear about feelings of inadequacy? He'll be telling you about his bowel movements next, if you don't stop him. Just remember that in a case like this, deadly force is admissable. It's him or you.”

William Burroughs (Paradise Mislaid, from Rebels and Devils)

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These fragments and quotes are taken from the unpublished writings of Jack Haas, selected from the notebooks 1990-2005.