The via dolorosa, Christ, stillness, and your own truth

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I alone have sought what was mine alone to seek; these are my truths, not yours. Get your own.

A dynamic medium which attempts to sustain a static quality, is not wholly dynamic; when you are the wind you are nobody always changing. All else is stasis, hardening, and an end which we call death.

It is, and is not, and enhances what it depends on by ...not being. It is the bond between opposites, without which they would be opposed, and not then married.

It is not our duty to walk the Via Dolorosa and repeat Christ’s path, it is our duty to walk our own. Therein do we become the Christ’s of our own selves.

I ran bolting through the days of torture and despair. I participated ineffectively, pondering many supplicative maneuvers, and yet I was afraid to cease falsely knowing myself. And so I allowed myself every inadequacy, every sorrow, every confusion, because I was sanctified by the relevance of unfulfilled need. Need became a preface to finding what was needed. As long as I needed, it was almost as good as having.

Anything but to be still.

I kept myself in perpetual limbo by striving only for those things which I was incapable of attaining, and in fact, towards which I was incapable of striving. And when eventually I fled to the only place left for me to flee- into myself- I found that I was still running away.

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These fragments and quotes are taken from the unpublished writings of Jack Haas, selected from the notebooks 1990-2005.