Mother Mary, Virgin Mary, Kurt Cobain, alien encounters, and Christ

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            God, the great facilitator of growth and healing.

            I had dreams of kissing mother Mary, and of eating a chocolate virgin Mary, similar to the dark virgin found in various French locations.

            Fasting in Paris for four days because my heart was broken and my spirit bent out of shape from the whole baptism thing and the loss of the dark woman whose middle name was Mary, and thinking thoughts like maybe fasting would straighten it all out quickly. It was no forty days in the desert, not even close, but it was an endurance match unlike any other I had ever undergone, going foodless amidst the world’s most sumptuously displayed gourmet foods, endlessly paraded down every street, in every café window, pattiserie, or market, and only a blind man with dead olfactory senses could have endured it. Hemingway did not call Paris a moveable feast for no reason.

             Alien synchronicities, in point form:

            After reading Communion, a man in the Keflavik airport waiting for the plane spontaneously began speaking of aliens doing research on us like we would do to wild animals- doping them, doing tests, collaring them, then letting them go.

            Reading about Kurt Cobain in Hyde park, and falling asleep, and dreaming that I was still reading about him then awaking and deciding to finish the artlicle which went on to say that as a youngster Kurt had made a movie to as to convince people aliens had landed in his family’s back yard and invaded their house.

            My dream of Kennedy- a voice saying that something did not want him to live. Then reading briefly in ‘The Gods of Eden’ a description of this.

            Random, synchronistic encounters on Orkney, where a few men, over a few nights, began speaking of aliens with similar positions.

            Are spiritual archetypes a form of breeding, of alien cultivations. This is why we say of individuals that they are ‘rare breeds’.

            After a friend’s bad car accident, he said some similar things to abductees, ie. That he thought the ambulance attendants had given him drugs to eliminate his short-term memory; he saw groups of ‘oriental’ people ie. Little and brown, in the room; he had the feeling that his ‘space suit’ wasn’t working correctly; feeling held down; and my dream that he had something implanted in his stomach.

I went right to the core and I still didn’t know it.

Most ‘natural’ disasters appear to be inanimate processes of the earth and atmosphere, which they are not, but only those individuals who are conscious of the living intelligence of the universe, and to those whom these events are directed, can the consciousness behind them be accepted.

            Christ is the one within you who does not bother with mankind but trusts God in all things.

            Jesus Christ was God’s first intimate experience of ‘being’ man. And it was through this experience that God came to understand what it meant and felt like to be a man, and so God could now empathize and redeem mankind back into the Godhead.

            Christ is not the one strung upon the cross. Christ is now. Can you be Christ now?

Do not let freedom limit where beauty exists.

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These fragments and quotes are taken from the unpublished writings of Jack Haas, selected from the notebooks 1990-2005.