Autobiography, prayers, God, Adam and Eva, and creation

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“…even a good autobiography is a high-speed photograph of a water-fall: it imposes a fixed form on a process falsified by fixation.” Morton Smith (Jesus the Magician, p 10)

Prayers are generally answered, and generally not in the way you would expect them to be answered.

The reason we are godless is because we desire everything else before god. Godlessness is our choice, not God's.

It is an unfortunate outcome of the fall that mankind now has the habit of being more in relationship with his fellows than with God. Though the latter is now possible again, the inertia of history condemns us to the old paradigm of exteriorization, when the true relationship to above lies within.

When your relationship to the world overwhelms your relationship to god, then you are godless and fallen.

Perhaps it will end the same as it began, with our two lovers- Adam the red earth, and Eva the mother- alone, morose, and lonely, and once again trying to fuck their way out of it.

I beat death because I chose life over anything death had to offer.

I, personally, am nothing, and EYE, impersonally, am ALL.

I write this now for those who will follow, because I am not coming back, because I refuse to come back.

To always be that which has not yet been.

God creates from behind his Creation; God watches, and follows, what he creates, for he sends his creation out ahead of him, like a bugler announcing the immanent arrival of the King. Thus Christ could say ‘I am the first and the last’.

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These fragments and quotes are taken from the unpublished writings of Jack Haas, selected from the notebooks 1990-2005.