The Christ om, Judas, an eternal nexus, missionaries, and an iron will

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             I am who I am. Who I am is what I am. What I am is who I am. Inner is outer. Outer is inner. One.

That is when we glow like they all glow when they glow from the Christ om within them. When the God that was crushed behind self explodes through the barricades of stasis; then we all glow like they glow when they glow from the light born within them; when the Christ om love joins the her and the him and the immanent union births the universe again. Then we glow like they all glow when they glow like we glow when they are the glow that we are that glow them.

            It is even possible that Judas was Christ’s shadow, and therefore had to betray him. However, Jesus was conscious enough to have only forgiveness for Judas, whereas most of us are arch enemies with our shadow.

Coming to completion in the wholeness of yourself, you end up needing things from the world less, and loving them more.

I became a new, eternal nexus, a novel commingling of realms and forces

Overcome the world of flux with an iron will.

In a way we are all missionaries, arriving onto this foreign plane from the great beyond. But we are all also primitives of this world, and so our lostness and home are in the very same realm, which is a typical paradox of the relationship between the outer spirit and inner soul, both of which we all are.

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These fragments and quotes are taken from the unpublished writings of Jack Haas, selected from the notebooks 1990-2005.