Santorini, the Big Island of Hawaii, Heaven, God, and faith

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            I also believe that I was intended, long before the fallout between my soror and myself, to go to Santorini, as the island itself must in ways be energetically connected to the Big Island of Hawaii, because, months before arriving on Santorini- where I had never consciously planned to go- I had a fair number of dreams which seemed to be taking place on the Big Island, but when I got to Santorini the dreams manifested in places of very similar feel and appearance to what had occurred in the dream, and so I had been mistaking Santorini- which I had never been to- for the Big Island.

And since everything is clear in the sight of Heaven, it matters nothing what the world knows, only the Heavens. The world is but a proving ground, as far as sin is concerned, and has no moral validity of its own; it is a weigh station where one is accepted or sent back for another try.

            But then also I would wonder- should I accept what God gives me, knowing it is better than what I could give myself? Or should I accept only the outcome of an agreement between God and myself, thus making our wills as one? And is this rebellion? Or is this faith in …our oneness?

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These fragments are taken from unpublished writings by Jack Haas, selected from the notebooks 1990-2005.