To live and not die, becoming the all, the dream, the love, and the King's bread

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 For we have not come to die, but to live, to be born into Life. So we must only die from this death, while yet we are living, then alone shall we live and not die.

             It is to evaporate at the moment of action, and to register no reaction.

When you become the All, everyone and everything pertains to you: every thought, every dream, every love, sorrow, truth, lie, life, and death. You are not separate. You are everything.

           You must be a hole through which you become the whole. But when you are finally everything, none of it will matter, for we only grasp for what we are separated from; once we are not separated, we cease wanting and are redeemed back to the undivided.

            In this way our lives are like grains of wheat which can struggle to grow as high and as strong as possible, and although we cannot cause the sun to shine, nor the rain to fall more often, we can yet still humbly ask to be chosen for the King’s bread, instead of his horse’s fodder.

I know only that we have all come here for momentous reasons, and if anyone tells you otherwise you can bet they have missed their cue.

This idea has come to me in many subtle ways, in many unexpected forms, and in many differing places. But in order to be capable of receiving these messages I had to learn to see differently, hear differently, and wonder differently, so as to be able to pick up the clues meant for me, and me alone.

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These fragments are taken from unpublished writings by Jack Haas, selected from the notebooks 1990-2005.