Clouds, the subconscious, aporia, writer's block, a false paradigm, God, and man

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I am the freedom of unadultered non-expectation.

The sea rains clouds.

It is not our need to transcend from consciousness, but to descend into subconsciousness.

Every time I attempt to describe being in words, I freeze; I am overcome with inability no justice. Aporia relinquishes me into the distances. ...It is because I cannot write about such incredibleness, because I cannot come up with it, that writing has become my meditation. My work is a paintingless artist's statement; a statement about what I have not produced; about what I cannot produce. When I cannot write, then I am writing. Writer's block is the reason I write.)

Now I do not imagine that I know what knowing is (a post‑socratic not‑knowing). I know only that I do not know if I know.

I was affirming a false paradigm by trying to struggle out of it.

"Wow!" is the only honest word that exists.

Open your eyes twice without closing them in between. This is your soul awakening.

God is man knowing man is god.

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These fragments are taken from unpublished writings by Jack Haas, selected from the notebooks 1990-2005.