Enlightenment, Osho, and and crying

Our philosophy, knowledge, learning, books, words, numbers, ideas, none of these have saved us, none of these have taken sorrow away from us, none of these has helped us to become our true and highest selves. On the contrary, the history of our servitude to the mind is an encyclopedia of ills. We have not lived more through the mind, we have only learned how to justify not living, that is all.

"I shall steep my soul in my feeling" cries out Dostoyevsky's Ivan Karamazov, "I love the leaves in spring, the blue sky- that's all. It's not a matter of intellect or logic- it's loving with one's inside, with one's stomach. ...Love life regardless of the meaning of it? Certainly- it must be regardless of logic- it's only then one can understand its meaning."(The Brothers Karamazov, p236)

            And again, Dostoyevsky resounds triumphantly- “Thou shall love life more than the meaning of life”. And with that declaration he has relegated thought to the station of lackey and has re-mounted the heart upon which the bare-back soul must passionately ride.

            To do, but to lose thought of the outcome; to act in the action, to be the action, but to forget the effect; to lose thought of ‘the fruit of the action’, to know neither good nor bad nor tomorrow, thus living in the amoral now-event of being, eating no longer from the Tree of Good and Evil, but only the Tree of Life.

            Another example of the heart's awakening, from another angle, is the story of a Japanese Master who, seen weeping at a funeral, was accosted by his disciples who suddenly questioned his level of attainment, and why, if he was enlightened, had he lost his emotional equilibrium. He responds, declaring:

"You fools, I am not going to stop crying because you say I am enlightened. Crying is a different thing altogether. Keep your enlightenment to yourself; I don't want it. ...You got it all wrong. It was before enlightenment that very few things effected me, because my sensitivity was dull and I was invulnerable and hard-headed. Now everything effects me, from end to end, so I will cry to my heart's content." (quoted in Osho's Kundalini, p135)

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These excerpts on following the heart and aimless wandering are taken from unpublished chapters of THE WAY OF WONDER, by Jack Haas