the surrender of a metaphysical refugee, existentialism and religion

If an angry man, tortured by the weight of his thoughts, but spiritually deprived; if this man emphatically professed the abdication of his will; if he decided that existence was nebulously acceptable, but he would no longer be responsible for dragging along his will and its concomitant anxieties and despair; if instead of giving in to a higher, unknowable entity, he demanded the retraction of his 'self' from which he concluded the privileged world was seen only as irrelevant pains. Would he, who had not asked for assistance in his task but had ordered it completed; would he, considering the directions were followed, be granted the riches a thief receives who fills his pockets and has an abundant life usually only granted to the industrious and determined? Or would he have only a metaphysical lobotomy?

Abdication is cowardly, surrender is courageous. The abdicator surrenders with hatred- a spiteful prisoner, not a grateful refugee.

Change comes from either addition or subtraction. As often is the case in any question of arithmetic, subtraction and addition are used equally to find the answer.

Anhedonia (definition: meaning no present in an action) is the offspring of existentialism, and the mother of religion.

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These selected fragments are excerpted from unpublished writings by Jack Haas; selections from the notebooks 1990-2005.